I celebrated my birthday on 09.17 (September babies, woot-woot!) and it was definitely perfect and amazing and memorable and just all the heart eyes! My guy spoiled me the entire weekend mostly with coffee runs to Starbucks (it’s PSL season, y’all) to talking about dreams and goals over the most romantic dinner to catching an awesome movie, and topping the day off with a visit to Ghirardelli (chocolate is the way to my heart), it was by far a perfect day. For me, it was also a day to open my Bible and reflect – to thank God for all that He’s done, and all that He’s doing in my life.
Of course, I had to add a little crochet to my bday, and my cozy Heavenly Blanket is a beautiful piece that I seriously can’t wait for cooler weather to curl up under. Coffee, cozy crochet and all the Fall feels? Um, yes please.
But it was anything but cool temps this past weekend (85 degrees outside, which I’m not complaining for a Chicago day, but still it doesn’t currently feel like Fall out) so I stayed inside, and cranked up the AC for a little impromptu bday shoot. It also gave me some time to reflect on where God has brought me from last September to this September. It hasn’t been easy. In the last year, I’ve been through a job layoff, moving twice, and some days definitely seemed harder than others. But in that time, I got an amazing new job (10 months strong!), got a bigger and more beautiful home, published the Our Maker Life Make Book Volume 1 (you can get a copy here!), met so many amazing makers at OML ’17 in Toronto this past July (recap here!)and it really just reminded how God wants us to trust Him from season to season.
You see, even when life feels hard and, (despite the temperature outside) life feels colder than we actually want it to, we can still try really hard to trust God. Even when you feel like you’re trying to stay afloat, but things keep pulling you down, you can trust God. Even when you’re not sure that it’s all going to work out, you can trust God. Even when you feel chained to your emotions and you feel like you’re constantly being tested, you can trust God. So yes, you’re strong enough to let go of that maker drama. If that person is a weight on your spirit and all they do is cause you stress and anxiety, let them go and love them from a distance. And yes, you’re strong enough to muster up the courage to open your online knit/crochet shop. Believe in yourself and watch God work in your life. And yes, you’re strong enough to stop feeling like you’re not good enough and thinking that everyone else’s life is better than yours. So yes, you can do this, whatever your “this” is, even if you can’t see how it is all going to work out tomorrow, or a month, or even a year from now, you can still choose to trust that God is going to work it out. It’s going to be okay. And you can proclaim your blessings over your anxiety.
1 Peter 5:7 Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you. God will never leave you. He will never forsake you.
So keep making – keep making in life, from day to day, from season to season. Keep faithfully working on the goals and visions that you made to yourself, and that you made to God. Because one day you’ll look up, reflect and see that the hard days were for a reason – that’s definitely how I felt on my birthday and it was truly all the more reason to get cozy and smile.
You can get my NorthKnits Heavenly Blanket Throw (grab it here in my shop) and for more maker encouragement, check out my latest interview on dealing with maker stress with Brittany of BHooked Crochet on her Bhooked podcast, episode 29 here.